Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Love and Let Love Live !



This was in 2006 , I had to see a strange situation in someone else's life ,of course it was once again about those typical youth crushes and the destiny which decides "Who gets Who" . I cannot reveal all the details but in the middle of the night , I had a question which is again one of those tricky questions just like - " Egg comes first or the Chicken ?". I even sent to groups then , to listen to people's opinions .It became a famous forward but I did not have many reactions then ,May be people started thinking too much and came up with no answer. Now, I thought its better I start from where I stopped .

The Question is "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay ??? ". Before you try to answer the question ,read the following story .





Tree :

People call me "Tree". I had dated 5 girls when I was in PUC . There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, goodfigure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, herintelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 2 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 2 years. She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off.The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend.I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, I showed just smiles & showered Best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I brokedown. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence? ."Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay ? ".


Leaf :

People call me Leaf. During the 2 years of PUC, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him.Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 2 years. At the end of my 2nd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land.Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay ?.


Wind :

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person looking at my senior & he playing soccer. During Sports time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me,smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away." "It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could n't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged hertightly.


Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...?


In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go. Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new life.


A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again.Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a life long appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on. The Greatest happiness of happiness is seeing your happiness ( read it as your love) happy .

Love,
Vicky

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Welcome !!


Hi There ,

First of all , Welcome to Snake Roast Blog !! .



This idea of Joint blogging came up between Me & Mahendran , my roomie , in one of our Dhaaru sessions (Yeah , I restarted my liquor stint after 4 long years of break ). The discussions with Mahi , were always interesting , there's a lot of "give & take" of wisdom.

I generally don't forcefully push my ideas to others , unless required . And many a times , Mahi had successfully made me vomit my ideologies , thoughts & emotions . It just happened that , Most of the times I keep my ideas on the table, and he opens up a completely new channel of thought or the undiscovered "need to think" areas . And I very often come up with a reaction saying " Ahh Boy , doesn't he make sense ! " . And I hope , it must be the same with him somewhere. I am an open person , and I always believed in the power of sharing things , and discussions with Mahi was one of a kind story , its also one of a classic examples of all the experiences I share with variety of friends list I have , who bring different ideas to the table always. Its not that I was wrong , but they all provided me that extra vision , to see the actual TRUTH .

TRUTH - Truth is poisonous , its sometimes tough to listen and even tougher to digest it. And the person (ala Snake) , who carries that is even more dangerous , He hides , he crawls , he escapes and he holds that eternal truth right inside him . So I want to roast that hidden Snake inside all of us , and bring that hard core truth sail through the souls . Hence the Name of the Blog - "Snake Roast". After All , Wisdom lies in coming to terms with Truth ,whether you like it or not , isnt it?.

Having said all that , I am not sure how did I sound there, but I am not here to give long lectures . We had enough of them . Haven't We ? . What I said above is the other side of the coin besides the fun we shall have here . I am actually , actually here to have fun . I want to share my poems , my stories , my ideas , my emotions , movie reviews , music album reviews and many more. I would also like to hear from you all .

What I speak here , may not be right always , but whats wrong in sharing anyways. May be I get a chance to correct it if its wrong , and receive appreciation if I somewhere make sense (You are very much needed here :-P ).This is my second blog , although my first , has never seen the eye of the public.That was intended only for myself . And I am putting this one truly , truly online. Hope you all like it .

I am sure Mahendra has got lots to talk , but I will refrain myself to speak on his behalf ,better hear it from the Lions Mouth .



Mahi & Me , We both Welcome you again . Be with us ,blogging & commenting .

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Love,
Vicky